Memories

I was laying in bed last night unable to sleep and was imagining what it will be like to give my special trio their very first cuddle, especially if we are not able to hold them for a few weeks.  Then I got to thinking what it will be like for Mr TAN to get to hold them for the first time.  As the child bearer we get to feel every movement and feel our bodies change, and although our partners are able to experience some of that I feel it is something so amazing for them when they have that very first cuddle.

Mr TAN was always someone who could take it or leave it with children, so I will back track a little here.  The Friday night our first little darling was born Mr TAN was tired from a long day at work and as always seems to be the case he was not very well that night.  After Oliver had made his arrival just after midnight the new father was sitting in a recliner on his own while I was lying down.  I asked the midwife to place Oliver in his arms so they could properly meet for the first time.  It was amazing to see them looking into each others eyes for the first time, and to see how that amazing father and son bond has developed and grown over the last two and a half years.  

  Here is the picture of that very first cuddle.  This second one was taken a few weeks ago of them sharing a hot dog at a local show. 

When I was discussing this last night Mr TAN expressed his concern that he would not be able to hold them all at once.  I explained that we will learn and we will find a way, to have these amazing group hugs. 

Last night Mr TAN was laughing about everyone asks him now if he will get the snip.  Although I don't imagine we would try for any more children and would be more than happy with our four boys if another miracle were to occur we would still be more than happy with our family.  Just because we will have four young children does not mean that our family is complete, or that people can make that assumption for us. 

Apart from that 2 more sleeps until our morphology scan on Tueday and will update a belly shot then too (it feels huge!!!)